Written by Elder Angela Hooper
Psalm 139:7-14 (KJV)
“Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.”
Sometimes, I get lonely. I am single and I haven’t given birth to any physical children. I live alone and I focus on my ministry and my work. Do you know what it’s like to be at home, walk by the phone, and pick it up because it never rings? Do you know what it’s like to be in a crowd of people and truly feel like the room is empty except for you? Do you know how it feels to be going through something and it seems like no one sees you or even cares to see you? Are you so isolated by life and its circumstances that you feel invisible? Yeah, I’ve been there.
I still have moments when Satan tries to use my loneliness against me. He tries to make me feel that it will always be this way. He tells me that everyone is concerned about their own lives and that I don’t matter. But I know that isn’t true because it says so in Psalm 139:7-14. God says that He is there no matter where I am, whether it is in the heavens, hell, the sea, and even the darkest places of the earth. He is right there with me.
He is here and I need to commune with Him. Once I join Him, He will fill my emptiness and replace my loneliness. Each time I commune with Him, He will let me feel His presence and I will know that He is right here and I am never alone. He loves me enough to never leave me nor forsake me. I am NOT alone! God is with me!
Lord, I get lonely sometimes. I feel like people don’t notice or understand how I feel. They assume that because I smile all the time that I don’t have these feelings. They just don’t know how wrong they are. When I am lonely help me to seek Your presence. You say that there is no where I could possibly be that You are not there. I truly am not alone. I want to feel Your presence in those moments when Satan would use my loneliness against me . Show me Your glory! Wrap Your arms around me and hold me! Fill me up! I need You, Lord! Help me touch You with my heart and mind, so that I am no longer lonely. I thank You in advance for being there to see about me. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.